Excuses Excuses Excuses

Where is the perfect quote that shares the frustrations of writers? Often, I find articles simply stating  "write 20 minutes a day, etc. etc. etc."  Then I scream like Cathy in the cartoons, ACK! 

Don't they, whoever they are, ever have chores, housework, gardening, walks to take, exercises to do, friends to lunch with, beauty secrets to discover, a game of golf to play, travels to take, books to read, or excuses like I have today? How could leave out my favorite excuse for not writing? I cherish the time when I close my eyes and take an afternoon nap.   

It's been three weeks since I exercised my brain by writing,and I've missed it. But, I've completed many projects that reward my desire for 'immediate gratification.'   

I started painting the front and back doors in April but humidity and weather stopped me. So when we experienced a dryer day last week I returned to this project. It could still use some touch up, but I resisted today and turned instead to my Art Gecko room for inspiration. 

Of course, after seeing a picture of myself in a golf tournament recently, I realized that I needed a new hairdo, as my other one expired. The old graying long hair was easy to care for, but not peppy and sporty. So now I feel younger, and isn't that important?













Our hearts nearly broke during the last two weeks as our lively dog,Lucy, suffered miserably from eating a dead animal. One room in our house took the brunt of her vomit and diarrhea!  After the carpet cleaner slaved to clean the messes, we realized that we needed to cut out the carpet immediately, before company arrives this week.  Next we will order new carpet.

I am happy to report that Lucy is once again healthy and we are happy. 

But in the meantime I noticed the clutter in the closet. Naturally, I wanted closure on that task, so rather than write about visiting Presidential Libraries, playing in golf tournaments, or laughing with life, I cleaned the closet which then led to a stack of items to take to Goodwill. More Excuses!  

Best of all, Jack and I have divided forces and worked together to create a beautiful yard, and yes, it took me away from writing and playfully creating stories but the rewards are well worth it.  

Outside with nature is my salvation.

With a long sigh I murmur to myself, "Sometimes I struggle with a full platter filled with living every day to the fullest." Then I notice the radiant blue jay sitting on our feeder by my writing window, "This is the life I enjoy."

Framed Reflections

Sitting in my comfy chair this weekend I noticed the reflection in the china cabinet of the flag flying in our yard. My mine wandered through the years of memories and landed back in my third grade music class when I learned the Star-Spangled Banner. My singing that day must have caught my father's attention, not for its beauty, but for its volume. "Tizzy," Dad hollered at me, "Tone it down before you wake up the neighbors." 

"But Dad, this is our National Anthem and I want everyone to hear it."

Dad listened and then we read the few paragraphs about Francis Scott Key together.  We both imagined what Key must have felt as he watched his county and his people being bombed by the British. I imagined Key writing down the words on a tablet, probably not the Big Chief tablet I used, but close.  The song lingered in Dad's mind, and he said something about the noise and terror of bombs that he'd seen during World War II.  Sadly, I don't remember this story, but I will always remember the feelings I experienced when Dad told a story about the war.

Star-Spangled Banner

A few years later I experienced the sounds and fear of 'incoming' rounds when I was married to Don Rains and living in Killeen, Texas.  Somewhere in the night the soldiers at Ft. Hood were in the field shooting rounds of ammunition. The land shivered around us and my heart skipped beats. Unlike Francis Scott Key, I just wanted to hid or run away. 

With my mind still whirling through memories I reflected on one line of poetry that I learned in fifth grade.  The line read "Music rescues the soul from the depths."  Our assignment was to make a booklet of pictures to match each line in the poem. The context of the poem was about the value and beauty of music, but I was stuck on the meaning of that line. I didn't think pictures from National Geographic helped me, because why would any person drowning in an ocean think of music? So I asked Dad what he thought.  

For a long time he didn't answer, then he began looking through Life magazine and others that we collected. At last he found some black and white pictures of men hunkered over and leaning against the walls of buildings in big cities. The men all appeared broken to me.  Several were missing legs and arms, others just seemed lifeless.  

"Tizzy," Dad finally spoke, "Remember the bums and crippled men we've seen in New Orleans and Wichita who live on the streets?" I nodded yes, because Dad often drove down skid row in Wichita and other cities and handed money to the men. He said that many of them were damaged by war or alcohol.  One time he handed me money and told me to get out of the car with a smile and give it to someone who needed it. I did it without fear and I smiled. 

Placing his index finger on a picture he touched it over and over. "These are the men whose souls can be lifted by music. Like this," he said, as he went to his bedroom dresser and pulled out his harmonica and played a melody. "A lively tune can lift the soul." I understood. 

I cut out that black and white picture of the men and put it in my book proudly.  Later, when the teacher handed back our music booklets I received a minus for that page. I didn't ask her why. Even in my child's heart I knew the teacher was wrong, and Dad and I were right. 

War affects each of us. I hope no one forgets the tragedies of war and the memories we share.  

July 4 celebration Hutchinson, KS